I have been working 10-12 hours almost every day on Weavolution. I am so tired I could cry. My right hand is killing me, I have surgery Tuesday and won’t have any use of my right hand for 2 weeks. My back is screaming from sitting at the computer so much and I just got told off via email by a friend of one of my partner’s. Don’t we all get to be boneheads once in a while. I realize she and her husband can’t see my side of it. He told me off via email. I wrote back a terse response and now she is pissed too. Great. So, no one really cares about any of this s**t except me. (sorry, I am usually a G rated person but this one got under my very thin, tired skin). I shouldn’t give anyone the power to upset me like this. We have over 300 fans of Weavolution on our Yahoo group, that should be good enough. My problem is I try too hard sometimes. And now I’ve allowed this person to bring me to tears. Of all the people to offend. I had to find the one donor who is friends with one of my partners and who believes I am a mean, nasty bonehead.
Besides having my right hand in a brace, I am relying on my left hand more and 3 fingers have started triggering again. So both hands are killing me. Now, it’s all poured out. I feel better. I’m leaving the computer on and going to weave. It’s too late, I screwed up and I can’t undo it. What I will take away from this is to examine my thoughts and feelings about someone who may have offended me in the past and make certain I forgive them. I don’t think there is anyone like that in my life but I will give it some thought. Have we all forgotten about forgiveness? Where did it go? And, I don’t believe there is anyone reading this anyway so it’s all an exercise in diary writing. It’s true, nobody really cares about any of this but me.